I'm Living In An Alternate Universe

What You Did Wrong …

Eventually you will read this and come to realise exactly what i have put up with in the past sort of 5 years from you… 

Hi I’m Shez, Shezi, Sherry, Shed (depending on who you talk to) 

I am many things a daughter, a partner, a sister, a godparent x2, a granddaughter, a friend, a listener even for most people (people i don’t even know in real life i might add) 

But aside all of these things and more i used to be a Best Friend … well i am not a best friend any more, i am now all of a sudden the evil, horrible, bitch of an x-friend who tried to tell you how to co-ordinate your life according to you! 

Right so we will start at the beginning or as far back as i care to remember any way… 
2008

I took you into my house with my family and you became not only my best friend but my sister. Straight after this you fucked off with mutual friends and ditched me for weeks at a time. 

2009 

You used the confidence i gave you and got rat faced on my boyfriends birthday sleeping with a mutual friend and shortly after that ruining my relationship with that friend because i chose you over him after that you got your self a boyfriend, you then cheated on this boyfriend when we were down town and said it did not count coz you were only seeing him not in a relationship with him. 

You spent less and less time with me after that running off to his house every time he clicked his fingers. 

2010

January 1st i got rushed into hospital dying! A number of visitors came a number of times, however from you there was 1 visit 1 time and i was there nearly a month, and it wasn’t a long visit probably 30 mins before you fucked off with him again. My family was there all the time some one there 24 hours a day, where were you snuggled up with your SMACK RAT (I let it go)

I hadn’t been out of hospital for a week and you told my dad you were moving out, not me your so called sister (best friend) and you told my dad first! so i let it go and wait it out after 4 days you had made your mind up and had picked a moving out date and still no info of this was chucked my way or mentioned… I gave you opportunity to tell me comments like have you got anything to tell me and nothing so i told you and still i let it go coz it wasn’t the right time to tell me apparently (I’d love to know when this right time ever comes out). 

I watched you move your stuff out of my house with the rest of my family helping you and i listened to you saying you would be coming back to visit on a regular basis. I took that as a confirmation and after a couple of days you had been living with your mum and dad and the boyfriend and no visit, i presumed it would be because you was settling in and left it. 2 weeks after that my dad asked you round and you came but had to go after like 10 minutes.  

At this point i knew i had lost you as a best friend and it would be Birthdays, Christmas and special occasions from now on. 

End of 2010 you moved into your own house just before Christmas and we saw you once more this time to come and have a gander at your house. 

2011 

You moved again into a bigger house, i was convinced at this point that you were pregnant. Turns out you weren’t at this point. 

However you let me down this year at a mutual friends birthday because he would not let you come out and play. This was when we started making bets you would not come out for my birthday but after some blackmail from dad and a hard time from your boyfriend you decided that for once my 21st took 1st place over his feelings. However you could have been pregnant here 

I saw you less and less until one night you decided to go for a walk with me after me asking for the hundredth time, you tell me your boyfriend has been hitting you and that you are pregnant. 

November you dump your boyfriend and we all help you move your stuff out of his house once you are sure this is your decision. I see more of you this month and the beginning of December but then after that you disappear again, I’m certain your thinking of going back to him at this point so i keep asking you to do stuff, you keep saying no or your busy or you cba basically. (tied was a good excuse for quite a while). 

2012

I continue to ask you if you want to do stuff go out, shop, walk, take dogs out anything. I remain getting the answer of NO 

By the end of January i start to get the hint but try to cling and so i went to your house occasionally when i could fit it in and continued to text when i was off or free and you continued to be to busy for me. 

Now we are on the 23/03/12 and yesterday i was well in truly pissed off to find out on Wednesday night that you were back in a relationship with the same so called boyfriend who thinks it FINE to hit you and apparently he has changed, well a lepod don’t try and be a zebra and you know it. 

Gunna be honest i think i deleted you, removed you and have avoided you from my life now and this is the end of it. 

NEWS FLASH - I WASN’T TRYING TO RULE YOUR LIFE NOR WAS I TRYING TO BE THE BAD GUY, HOWEVER I AINT TO KEEN ON THE IDEA THAT THERE IS NEVER A RIGHT TIME TO TELL ME STUFF WITH YOU. 

But when im told im telling the world or the whole of Facebook your business i figured i may as well do it right, so that is what i have done 

Our relationship did have a give take situation its just a shame i was the one giving all the time and you were the one who was taking. 

Happy valentines day